Dear God,

I'm a little anxious today as I have a scheduling clash today. I would love to go to a meditation group today but I would hardly have time to get back for a scheduled phone call with my clients.  And I am trying to plan how to arrange things at the weekend, time at a conference, time to network, time with my sisters... I get bogged down in trying to make plans and I am anxious that I will miss out, or do it wrong, or upset someone.  It is not a major thing, just sorting out my diary!
But I feel on edge and not at peace, and that is not how I want to feel.
Some part of my mind feels I am on my own, I'm totally responsible and I never get things right.  Yes, it's a little bit of self hatred right there.  I don't want to analyse and verbalize every last detail, but I do just acknowlege the fearfulness at the root of this feeling.
I'm not trusting that everything works together for my good...
And so I just press pause on all that thinking.  Breathe in an out and see the anxiety for what it is, a symptom that I, my little ego, am trying to hold the reins.  I am willing to let go of the reins,  not to nothing, but to the Divine Loving Intelligence that is the essence of Life.  May I see more clearly that I do not need to "take charge,"  I will be guided.  I place my trust in God and I choose peace as the outcome I seek from the situation.

Outcome.
I chose not to go to the meditation. I had a little doubt if it was actually happening and I realized I did not want to have to rush back.  I trust I will make it another time and I will get more clear about the commitments in my diary so that I do not create a clash.
About the weekend, it is a work in progress and I am just taking gentle steps to plan things but be open to them not working out the way I would like, and trusting that is OK too.